I've had it!!!

I really don’t know what else I can do anymore. I have tried my very best to be patient and understanding. To accept what she does and to forgive and forget. I r4eally don’t know how I can do this anymore. Every day, I get so hurt by something she did. And yet every time, I just forgive her and hope that the next day will be better. Every time, I am the one who has to apologize. Every time, I have to accept defeat. Has she ever understood what this means to my self confidence? If I have to give in and apologize all the time even though I don’t think it’s my fault, what do you think I will become? I just don’t know anymore. Every day I hope things will get better and better. I keep on hoping and hoping. I am really a very persevere person. No matter what, I don’t give up. But even the hardest rock will eventually break. There is a limit to everything. It’s just how much. Just when I got so happy today, she went and nicked my feelings. Okay, that I understood. But how hard is it to type 1 word? One short word, one syllable, four letters. Wait. One word is all I need. That’s all I need. Is that really so fucking unreasonable? I can’t take this anymore. All the things she said seem so useless now. What is the use of saying all those if you end up doing things like this? You don’t want to push me to the edge but that is exactly what you did.

WTF???

Oh I know, I should not get so mad because someone somewhere, forgot this small pitiful soul who is eager to go and help out for the Malaysian Fest. I’m sure that in the business of their daily lives, people just forget to inform one person. Hey! No biggie! It’s just one person, who cares?
I care! That’s what. In the beginning, I didn’t go because nobody informed me. And there goes rumours/grunts/complaints that I did not go and help. It’s so unfair. But sure, I accept that people are busy (I’m pretty sure they run multi-million companies that if left unattended for one minute, will lose a contract worth millions of dollars) so they forgot to inform me. I mean I didn’t get emails, I didn’t get word of mouth, so how the hell do I suppose to know there is meeting or work, or whatever stuff they want help with. And now, after I tried so hard to go every time, they just fail to inform me when there is no work/practice. What the f***? Seriously! WTF?