chris down the rabbit hole

i don't understand why things just changed so much recently. i'm so tired and sad and disappointed. i don't know what more i can do. things that weren't a problem in the past is now suddenly a problem. how can things change so drastically over the past few weeks? im so tired. i'm so tired of crying so many times already. i'm tired of banging my head against the wall. i'm tired of cutting myself. i'm so tired. why has everything changed so much now?