Amagami ss

Yea. Its a new anime that i'm watching. But it really gets me down sometimes. Its just that it is a romantic anime and seriously, i don't need that. It makes me sad when i think about my own life. When i think about how perfect that guy in that anime had it. Why can't i have the same? it really hurts to watch it and then look at my own life. I'm so pathetic. Every day i wish my life would be like a perfect romantic story and everything would be smooth and great. I'm not sure how far reality is from my expectations. Maybe lignt years away. Recently, i've become more and more depressed. Somethings happened lately that really just leave me speechless. I find myself unable to sleep at night. I mean seriously? is my life not fucked up already? what more can life throw at me to make it worse? i'm really down all the time. And nothing to cheer me up. Every day i dread waking up to see my bullshit life. Why can't i have moments of happiness? is it so hard for me to get that beautiful perfect romantic story told in stories? why cant i obtain happiness? for a long time now, i havn't had any great things to look forward to. My life is as fucked up as always and i just trudge forward everyday hoping that the very next day, things will be different. So please, let my life be more smooth. Give me something to look forward to. Something that won't make me feel so depressed all the time.

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