forgetting

it has just been a few days and yet i feel like i have been suffering for so long. every single thing reminds me of her. and this hurts me even more. because so much has happened, even those smallest things can be related to her. what can i do anymore? i hate all that has happened. i even hate her now, for forcing me to stop contact with her. knowing how much it hurts me, she still insisted that i do so. that is so selfish.

i can never totally forget a person that i love so much. this is not what i think, but what i experienced before. i could never forget vivian and grace. i did eventually, but the way in which i finally forget them is.... by focusing and putting all my attention into another girl. not a rebound relationship, but more than that. with vivian, i finally forget her after falling in love with grace. and with grace, it was after i fell in love with jaryn. so now? go find another girl? what the hell can i do? i really want to forget jaryn because she hurt me so much. but how?